September 1999 - Present

It's November 2001 as I write this - just over two years since the last entry. I really ought to have been more on top of this, but something came up: it's called life.

The talk with my parents was an important step for me in that it helped to alleviate a lot of the anxiety I was feeling. While for so long I had wanted them to have done something for me regarding my gender I realized that they had the best possible thing for me: let me figure out for myself who I needed to be. Thanks Mom and Dad. :)

OK, so it took a while for me to come to terms with all of this, but now that I finally have, it all seems so, well, trivial. I'm done with the obsessing and whatnot over who and what I am and have gotten on with actually living my life. My gender, whatever it is (or isn't) is not the totality of who I am but rather just a small part thereof. There is so much else going on in my life (like my daughters) that deserves at least as much attention if not more.

So, for the time being, my life has reached, more or less, a point of happy stasis. No, I don't claim to have discovered all the answers, but I have discovered who I am and what works for me. Not bad for twenty five years work. :)

And that, me droogs, brings my diary to a close...

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