October - December 1998

All is still pretty much quiet. Life continues to be the usual day to day existance we all know and love. To me, this is a good thing. I seem to be less bothered by all of this since comming to terms with who I am. This is not to say that I still don't feel some level of general anxiety. I do, but I seem to be used to it, although some days are worse than others.

I've thought about it in the past and still am considering trying low dosage hormones. While there is not much in the way in empirical evidence, anecdotal evidence suggests that there are definite positive psychological benefits to be had from them. I've decided that if I do persue this, it will be through a doctor. Hormones are serious stuff and not something with which to be played.

I'm holding off on talking with my parents about all of this. With the holidays approaching, the timing is not the best. Bad enough that all of this came out last year just before Christmas. A few more months are not going to make a big difference one way or the other.

Halloween was fun this year. I did the drag thing for a party some of our friends were having. Pix and a short writeup can be found here.

December marks one year ago that my carefully constructed little world imploded on me. At that time, everything looked as though it were over and I seriously thought about suicide again. Since that time, much has happened and my outlook on life is much better. While I feel I've resolved a lot vis-a-vis self understanding, I still have a lot more to do.

All in all, a most eventful and educational year, athough given a choice, I'd have done it differently.

And that, me droogs, brings October through December 1998 to a close...

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